Perhaps I like the abuse?

Negative attention is so easy to get. Hey at least people are paying attention!
That was my mantra for years.
YEARS!

I had no idea I was so self destructive until ,I kid you not, a bolt of lightning during this weeks storm.
The sad thing is that this mantra applies to relationships. If someone is yelling at the top of their lungs at you well… at least they are talking to you.

I’m beginning to understand how starved for attention I really am and how that need has affected my life.

I’m working thru it.